gosh, i so like Miah..really deep liking..could even say im a bit infatuated..

Miah is the year's president of UPAdHere..not bad looking, but not a strickingly hot papa.. so what?he's got the personality that i love for a guy.. so nice, responsible, down-to-earth and many other adjectives that could fill my list of his on and on characteristics.. listing it here will just bore you to death. any way, those are just my impressions.. we're not really close.. true enough that i can talk to him, text him, can borrow notes from him and greet him whenever i meet him along the corridors of UPManila or along the street of Faura[and to my fortune, he smiles and wave back.. to add more delight, sometimes he is the one who greets me first because i have a very pathetic, low-vision eye].. but that kind of relationship with him is not enough to make me feel alive for months.. i want him to know me better and t0 have a more deeper relationship with him, i mean, it isn't bad to wish that i want him to be my friend, right?well, as others say, at least he knows my existence on this fu**** planet..

well, today, we were in the caf when i saw him from the next table. gosh.. then nikko, lou's apple of the eye appeared... i took picz of nikko's through camile's phone.. too many photos actually.. then wen miah was about to leave, i took of picz of him too.. in one photo, he is lookin at me..BUSTED! he knew what i was doin all the time.. lou said that he was lookin at my direction every now and then while i was busy [and OBVIOUSLY] takin picz of nikko.. gosh, i am so abashed ! eew, i feel bad.. i don't know what to do.. will i pretend that nothing happened or shall i stay away from him now? i guess he knows that i have this thing for him again.. it is not hard to put two on two together.. should i be ashamed of my behavior, or rather, my misbehavior?

aahh, that is so draining...